It hurts!
What hurts you ask?
Life hurts.
Living hurts.
Living with you that is.
Every moment I spend with you hurts
And every moment away from you is worse
But that’s the way you want it, right!
Shelter me, conceal me
Make me so dependable that I cannot leave
Because I won’t be able to survive
Can’t survive without you, isn’t that right!
So, I’ll keep you near
Bounded by fear
Why can’t you just let me be!
Release me, I want to be free.
Can I at least see?
See if I can turn my own key?
Somewhere just for me
Somewhere where I can be me
Be, oh I long to be me
But no
I have to be you
Do exactly what you want me to
Dress like you
Talk like you
Act like you
Look like you
But can’t you see
I’m not in the least happy
Cause none of this shit is me
But it’s not for long
Cause soon I will be gone
Soon I will be far from
Far from you… mom
Excerpt from Reflections